Just you and me, doing everything under the sun and shelter me when the rain starts pouring ♥

"tu me manques, sweetheart"

"You don’t know, but that’s okay. You might find me anyway. Don’t you know that I belong arm and arm with you baby?"

Then the rain came pouring down. I'm drowning in my fears. As I watch the setting sun, I wonder if I'm the only one. Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line and feels a broken heart sometimes. Even when I'm scared I have to try to fly. I've got no master plan to help me out or make me stand up for, all the things that I really want, you had me to afraid to ask and as I look ahead of me, I cry and pray for sanity.

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else. I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself. I'd rather have hard times together than to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

You know you can do it. Do it even better than me. But do you just choose not to? I know you'll be fine. You're part of me and if you're not strong I want to be your only strength, your laughter and your medicine, i'd do anything to make you heal and to bring you up back again. I see the sparkle of a million flashlights, I wonder why all the the stars, but the one that's shining out so bright, is the one right where you are.

I was given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But only one heart. Because the other was given to you, to always protect and bring me wherever you go.

Weekends ended :( But the tire is still on. Had too much places to go, too many things to buy during the weekends..

Friday- Karaoke and supper with family and cousins.
Saturday- Swensens lunch at Airport, Shopping at Vivo and Orchard. Christmas lightings!
Sunday- Shopping at JB. Horror movie- Santau! Effing scary.

Today is Monday and i'm being a couch potato. Saying no to jogs, and etc. Just feeling too lazy. Just watching dvds, challenge friends on Bejeweled Blitz on fb, called up macs for lunch and just being alone at home. Probably should start on something soon. Gingerbread man orders tonight! Gotta conserve my energy.

I have to start feeling contented about life. I can't be wanting cookies and seeing prince charming everyday. The more I want it, the more it'll never happen. Well, that's life. It's not only rainbows and butterflies. I can be nodding, but what's really deep inside, do you know?

This has got to be such a rare look of me. Ehem ehem (Y)

I..

1) Went swimming. real swimming, no kidding
2) Jogging plans didn't happen for some reasons
3) Attended boyf's Social Night at Safti. Army is real budget. Everything so limited -.-
4) Gotta stop watching dvds.
5) Gotta visit grandparents more often.
6) Have to start having sense of directions. Can't afford to get lost at Amk Central. Goodness.
7) Town-ed with sister!!
8) Have to reduce my late night food intake.
9) Gotta start saving money!
10) Can't wait to spend quality time with family this Sunday. Without Irfan though.

God knows why dad came up with the idea for shopping and movie on Sunday. It feels so weird. My family's acting up all weird these few days. Luckily i'm close to my only sister that I can share stuffs whenever we prepare for bed everynight. It's really contradicting..

Oh well, I gotta start counting down the days I get to meet darling boyfriend :( It's been longggggg alright. Okay countdown till he books out which is on 9th Dec! 22 more days :(

-Long sigh- I gotta go catch my breathe.

I love the way you pick me up and spin me round and round.
I love the way you hold my hand no matter who's there.
I love the way you say my full name when you're unheard.
I love the way you tilt my chin just enough to kiss me.
I love the way you your arms fit perfectly around my waist.
I love the way you brush my hair out of my face.
I love the way you follow me everywhere just to hear me complain.
I love the way you drive me to places I've never gone to.
I love the way you feed me just to make me fat.
I love the way you wait for me like I mean the world to you.
I love the way you let me sleep on your shoulder when I'm tired
I love the way you know what is my favourite.
I love the way you follow me just everywhere even if it means watching HSM.
I love the way you have to scare me with your naughty ceiling stunts
I love the way you pretend that you're not jealous when you actually are.
I love the way you keep your eyes wide awake during a movie just to entertain my complains
I love the way you sheltered me in the rain.
I love the way you had to cover yourself up when my cousin asked who you went out with
I love the way you just talk nonsense when you're half asleep on the phone.
I love the way you look like you're interested to listen to me even when you're tired.
I love the way you act like you didn't sleep on the phone when you actually did!
I love the way you know when is the best time I need ice-cream!
I love the way you spin my nieces and nephew around and make them just cling onto you.
I love the way you rush around places on my big eighteen party just to be there and be of help
I love the way you just laugh though my jokes aren't funny.
I love the way you just have to be there for me.
I love the way you rushed down to my place when you know I'm not okay.
I love the way you just feel uneasy when my grandma keeps praising you
I love the way you just eat whatever my mum serves you even if it's something you'll never eat for life.
I love the way you just watch your ways infront of my parents
I love the way how our cute eyes just won't get sick of each other.

You impressed me with your ways of comfort the first time I cried when you're around in front of a letter.

It's just you, love! Happy 20th Birthday. As much as I wanna be with you on your day, I can't cos army took you away :'(

Oh boy, I just love you ♥

If something bad happens to us someday, it’ll never change what we have now; what we’ve always had. Cause you were right, our love is real and we have to do everything to keep it alive.

All I want is to be there with you. I'd do whatever it takes to least see your face at a glance. It's really taking a hell out of me. Army is! All I hope is that you feel the same way too, love! It's really a countdown for me now. Countdown till..the time comes? Sometimes I wish I could fast forward time just to see if it will all be worth it in the end. Nevertheless, the pain stays so does the wait. It's not over baby. Just call on me, I'll be right there even at four in the morning my love ;)

The next thing i knew he was holding my hand and looking right in my eyes. My heart stopped. It just stopped beating. And for the first time in my life, I had that feeling. You know, like the world is moving all around you, all beneath you, inside you, and you’re floating. Floating in mid air. And the only thing keeping you from drifting away is the other person’s eyes. They are connected to yours by some invisible force, and they hold you fast while the rest of the world spins, and twirls, and falls completely away. If only you could see, just how much you mean to me.

In desperate need of good news.
All i want for Christmas is you.