Insya'allah.
It is never too late
Sunday, 19 February 2012
Assalamualaikum, readers.
Alhamdulillah, I have started my journey as a faithful muslimah for the past two months. All I can say is I wake up feeling very thankful that I have been given the opportunity to rise and see the beautiful world.
What makes me wanna start donning the hijab for the rest of my life?
I feel guilty each time I read the hadith and sunnahs when I attend my madrasah classes. I know that it is a command from Allah for the ladies to cover our aurah. Allah gives me my body, my senses, my family and most importantly, Allah gives me a chance to step into this world but what am I doing to thank him? I feel like I haven't been appreciating Allah. My solats were on and off. I have everything I need in this world. Parts of my body are functioning well so there is no reason why I should not thank Allah. I lied on my bed and stare onto the ceiling and said, "Ya Allah, I am sorry for I have been a bad slave to you. I want to change and I need your guidance." I made up my mind to cover myself. Sadly, I had so many thoughts in my mind that stopped me.
I started questioning myself:
What will my friends think of me? Will my friends think I'm old-fashioned to be putting this cloth on my head? Nadiah, are you sure about this? Are you ready to make the change for the rest of your life? How will the society accept? Will people think I am just covering up for the sake of acting innocent? I had too many thoughts runni
ng in my mind that it just keeps pressuring me. Changing for the better is not easy. It comes from within oneself and not how the person looks. If hijab is a command from Allah, why am I rejecting it? Why am I playing dead to it? I am going to return to Allah so I will not reject any of his commands.
Decision made and nothing is going to change my mind. Syaitans are everywhere.
I surprised my mum with a "Mak, help me get a matching scarf for my outfit, please?" The smile on my mum's face is just speechless. Her wish for me came true.
Ya Allah, I hope it is not too late for a change. I am a happier muslimah now all thanks to you, thank you for your guidance.